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Becoming a tantrica

Finding my mission excersize January 31, 2010

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What is it that I love to do and am good at: dancing, reading, playing piano, doing sports, working out, going to workouts, being with other women, sex, writing, journaling, travelling, flirting, self help and personal growth, taking workshops, connecting with people, friendship, leadership, providing direction, guidance, math, logic, puzzles, organizing, planning, scheduling, goal setting, supporting and motivating others, cooking, training, manifesting, generating ideas, brainstorming, self pleasuring, music, skiing, swimming in the ocean

My best qualities: ambitious, smart, strong willed, caring, beautiful, mindful, good listener, thoughtful, kind, playful, very optimistic, cheerful, easy going, not demanding, independent, powerful, passionate

What flows naturally: dancing, journaling, sharing, listening

If I knew what I wanted to do, what would it be?: I want to inspire other women to feel their beauty and power. To open their hearts, to feel their body, to live fully. I want to show them the way how to break from 8 to 5 job, how to live their dreams, how to find your Destiny Path. How to connect with people who are your true family, how to have the best sex of their lives, how to feel like a Goddess and how to inspire their man to be the best they can be. I’d like to teach women how to squirt and how to open to sex, open to men. And I’d love to teach man how they can fuck their women open to God. I’d also love to be of service to man and women to achieve the sexual wholeness. I’d love to be with honorable, authentic men and help them to overcome the blocks to their sexual power. I’d love to show them what it means to be with a Goddess. I want to make them feel like Gods they already are. I’d love to teach women how to ejaculate. I am living my life fully, a Goddess on her Divine Destiny Path.

How can I become such a woman? Or should I say how can I help her to emerge, because she is already in me. I wouldn’t be having this desires and visions if it wasn’t for her.

– start working with a Tantra coach. Done – mediation and spiritual practice. Started

– networking – surround myself with role models and like minded people – started

– read as much as I can on the subject, become an expert, don’t be afraid to share

– Write. Keep writing, journal your whole journey, it will help other women on the same path

– Work on your personal integrity, on your boundaries, be in your power

– Get out there and dance

– Keep your heart open, constant practice of keeping your heart open in all situations and keep connecting with people on the heart level.

– Overcome fear, make a plan and do it, one thing at a time.

It might take a logn time, but so what. In 3 years, in 5 years – imagine that. I’m 40 year old, I’m having my own tantric practice, I work with clients – men and women, I write books, I love my life, I travel freely, I take vacations and live in different parts of the world. I inspire my husband, we are creating this wonderful life together, I’m living fully. I’m beautiful, powerful, unstoppable. I’m inspiring other women to grow, I am a teacher. I am strong, I am walking freely on my destiny path. I teach dance, I have my own studio and I love love love it. I love my life. I am free. I am easily making 100K per year and more through the passive income and through the work that I do with my clients. I am enriching their lives, I give freely from my heart, I am fulfilling my mission.

 

Finding my way

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I am living fully, with an open heart, connected to the Great Spirit. I am a Goddess walking on my Destiny path, in my beauty and in my power. I am a Dakini, a woman who is dedicated to the practice of evolving consciousness and embodying bliss, and who supports others on this path. Central to this path are presence, personal empowerment, emotional intelligence, sexual wholeness, and embracing the shadow. I am free to love, to create, to empower. I connect with people on a heart to heart level. I make a difference. I am a divine spirit.

What is it that I want to do? Please show me. I’m asking for guidance, Great Spirit. I’m asking for the connection with Divine Mind. I am asking for a direct experience of what I am meant to do, what is it that I need to do right now? What wants to happen? What am I supposed to do? What is my heart wants me to do? I want knowledge, in my heart and in my soul – what am I meant to do. You are meant to figure it out and share with others. You are meant to coach men and women on their path of sexual wholeness.

 Your spiritual practice this month – for 30 minutes every day you will contemplate and write on your mission. You will ask for guidance from the Great Spirit, you will open your heart, feel your body and you will write. The answers will come. You want to teach dance, common, stop hiding, it’s obvious. Your path is not yoga or martial arts, your path is dance. Stop hiding it – dance.

 It’s ok not to know exactly what you need to do yet. You will grow, you will be a different person – and you will see it then. The more you open, the more you get to be in touch with your higher self, the more you will feel and know it. You’ve seen some of the truth already, you know when you are on track. Just continue. Don’t give up. Don’t let it stop you. You see, it’s a test, you are being tested. When the going gets tough, the tough get going.

 The path to a sexual wholeness.

 My fears:

–         how to work from home, loneliness – you will connect with different crowd, with people who are free, people who are living their dreams, people who are free from the 9 to 5. You’ll be free to do whatever you want. You’ll work when you want to, you’ll spend time with your children, you’ll workout during the day, dance, hike, be in nature, meditate in nature. And you will travel. You will be free to travel. You might see less people during the day, but the connection will be deeper.

–         what if my mission is so big, how can I do it? Who am I to do it? Who are you not to? – you are here to do what you committed to do. You are given all the strength and all the gifts needed to fulfill your mission. The support is available to you – greater than you can imagine. People who will support you are here, you just need to reach out. Don’t hold back. You will surprise yourself.

–         There are other people doing the same thing already, better, smarter, more experienced. How can I find my own niche, my own way? What if I’ll never make it? – the universe is an abundant place. There is a place for everybody. Everyone has their own important role to fulfill. You know it very well, what you have will work for some people and will not work for others. You cannot please everyone nor do you need to. There are women who can benefit from what you have to offer. And the more you do the better you will get.

–         It’s all so scary. Up, it is. Feel the fear, and do it anyway. You know it too, the more you do it, the easier it gets. This fear will go away and the new one will come, all it means is that you are growing. Isn’t it great. If you have no fears whatsoever, you’ve been stagnant for too long. There is no growth anymore. SO, go for it. Expand. Master it. Fear in itself means nothing, everybody feels it. Don’t let it stop it. It’s not even real, it’s not real you. Find your center – there are no fears there. You are on your path, you can’t do anything wrong.

–         People will not like me. What other think of me is none of my business, seriously. Some would not like you and some would. So what. I’m doing it for me. I’m doing it because I cannot not do it. It’s simple really.

 

How to Suck at Anything January 28, 2010

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Loved a post by Jonathan Mead at Illuminated Mind

http://www.illuminatedmind.net/2010/01/12/how-to-suck-at-anything/

That’s what happens when you start anything.

You suck.

And that’s great. Sucking is absolutely necessary. There’s no way around it. In order to get better at anything, at some point or another you’re going to have to suck. That’s just the way it is.

The only way to avoid criticism, avoid looking like a fool and failing is to not do anything at all. And if that’s okay with you, fine. But I don’t see any point in living if that’s the case.

When it comes down to it, if you ever want to get good at anything, at some point you’re going to have to suck.

I’d rather be terribly horrible at everything that I do, than do nothing at all. At least that way I know that I tried. I’ll know that I lived and I didn’t just exist.

There’s a secret I’ve learned, though. If you embrace that you suck, it loses its power over you.

So, stop wasting time reading this. Go find something to suck at.

 

Dakini

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The Daka or Dakini is a man or woman who is dedicated to the practice of evolving consciousness and embodying bliss, and who supports others on this path. Central to this path are presence, personal empowerment, emotional intelligence, sexual wholeness, and embracing the shadow (unintegrated psychological material).

Can I become a dakini? I feel like a caterpillar who dreams about flying. Can she believe it? How? She looks at herself and it’s impossible. However, one day she will turn into a butterfly (she is a butterfly, she and a butterfly is one) and she’ll have beautiful wings and she will fly. Yes, she’ll have to stay in the dark, but the magic will happen. But she first has to break free from the cocoon. Will I break free? I know I will. Intent and surrender. I know it will happen. And I will do anything it takes. It’s a long journey and from where I am right now feels impossible, But what’s impossible one day is normal the next. And so I start.

 

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There is so much to post about:

– I had my Goddess dance organized

– I had an affair –

– And I started my tantric coaching

Life is good and exiting.

To keep it short, just for me, so I’ll remember later

Tantric coaching

– Practice: presencing(as much as I can remember) and meditation(10 minutes in the morning) Presensing practice – keep feeling your breath, and your whole body, the energy, inside and outside, tips of your toes and the air on your skin, how it feels to move, your hair, the air on the inside of your nostrils on inhale, on your upper lip on the exhale. Feel it all at once, be in your body. You’ll notice how the chatter brain will stop, you can’t pay this much attention to your body and still have thoughts. If thoughts do arise, just ignore them.

Sat Nam meditation – 10 minutes in the morning – eyes crossed looking at the tip of your nose. On inhale turn your head to the left and say “Sat”, on exhale, turn your head all the way to the right and say “Nam”

Intent and trust. Intent to connect with spirit, to experience your destiny path. Trust that the spirit will hear me and will respond. Whatever is needed will appear, people who I need to connect with will appear in my life. My path will unfold in front of me. My own path, my own destiny. Not because somebody else said so. My own.

Goddess Dance – manifestation in it’s best form. Let the energy flow and get out of it’s way. Everything happens. Be connected with spirit and centered – do what you have to do (overcome fears and blocks), just do it. Do every little step that you have to do. Everything will unfold beautifully. It all happened. And it happened so fast. We are having the dance. Women need it, women show up and want it. They had their money ready. Amazing. Unbelievable

Affair. Isn’t not really an affair, my husband know and wholeheartedly approves. But, it took me by surprise. I always wanted to surrender to a strong, powerful, dominant man. Well, I’m playing with a Dom. I’ve known him socially for 3 years. I’ve been flirting with him forever and this time I went too far in my flirting, we decided to play. He warned me, he gave me a way out. I didn’t want out, I wanted in. And so the game has started – the mind fuck, the emails, exchanging fantasies and hopes and beliefs. I fell into it heels over head. I wanted it so much. And I let myself feel. I let myself be me. I explored my fantasies, I went deep, I went through barriers and beliefs. I discovered so much about myself. I’m into beautiful submission! That’s just me, that’s who I am. I yearn to submit to a strong man. With an open heart, in my feminine power, I yearn to surrender to his strength, I yearn to open all of myself and surrender so completely like I’ve never done before. I’m not into pain, I’m not into humiliation, I’m not into diminishing anyone. For the first time in my life I get to experiment and explore my fantasies – no shame, no guilt, no fears. I’m just being me.

When we played for the first time, all the teasing, all the build up made me quite a basket case. I couldn’t stand, I had to sit down, I didn’t know I can feel his much, I didn’t know I can take it all. And the evening haven’t’ even started yet. We eat dinner – I tried to eat, I put food in my mouth and I didn’t know what to do with it. I haven’t feel like that since I was 19. For that alone I’m grateful. I loved the attention. I felt it was all about me. And I wanted to give back. And I did, and I made him loose control and I loved it. I gave him a very special experience too and it felt right. We are going to play again. I have to satisfy this hunger, I have to get it out of my system. And my relationship with my husband is only better because of it. I’m way hornier (that’s always nice) and I want to do so much more with my husband. And I want to treat him like a God, like he’s deserved to be treated. My husband is God in bed. He is simply amazing. The other man gave me my fantasies. My husband will give me the rest.

 

January 11, 2010

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I loved the post from Jonathan Fields (CareerRenegade) where he talks about his journey. I especially liked this part:

http://www.jonathanfields.com/blog/oh-the-places-you-will-go/

It doesn’t mean life’s always easy, always fun, always flowing along. I have challenges, frustrations, angst and anxiety, just like anyone else. But, because they tend to be in the name of the quest for a more authentic, empowered life, it’s so much easier to reframe them as something positive. To move through the challenges with more grace. To understand that, as Kierkegaard said…

Anxiety is the dizziness of freedom.

I’ve also discovered that part of the process of coming alive involves taking responsibility for your actions and inactions, learning from your outcomes, then closing the book and integrating what you’ve learned to inform and enhance the next leg of your journey.

 

To quit or not to quit January 10, 2010

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I’ve just read a phrase “there are too many ways to make money to stay in a job you hate.” Is that true? How am I going to figure out what I can do – and make money, so I can quit my job and break it free.  Yes, find what you love, what is it that you would love doing so much that you wouldn’t ever call it work, regardless of how difficult it is. And go for it. A year form now, you will be in an entirely different place, guaranteed. 3 years from now, you’ll make it.

And of course, quitting right now is not an option. Not an option…. that’s just too bad, but I’ll be back at work tomorrow but after work, I’ll be right back here, trying to figure it out and make it happen. Let’s see what I am made of. Let’s see, if I am willing to be a woman I always wanted to be. Because the alternative is dying. Dying inside, pretending, hiding, making yourself small. You can’t do it anymore, you have to let yourself be free. Be love, that you are. You already are everything you ever wanted to be. Just ask your mind to shut up and act from your heart. Is it all it takes? yes, I think it is all it takes to really make it, because if you are not happy, no amount of money is going to help.

So, don’t quit your job(yet) and don’t quit your dreams. You’ll make it.